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初生之犢

December 30, 2016
下個星期正式開啓我的十星期實習,是抱著一種既期待又怕受傷害的心情。
衹是有些事不吐不快,打從正式被錄取的那天我就心裏建設隨時會被摔爛玻璃心的(雖然真的沒那麽脆弱啦)不過我是真的清楚接下來要過的日子。不是只聼好聽的,而是已聽了太多負面評語。必要嗎?把所有事都往壞的方向想,真的日子會過得比較快活?23年來,就是很轉牛角尖的想錯了很多事,做錯很多決定,新的一年我想開始學習正面思考。

想想人生有多少原本美好的事就是被心中那討厭的負能量給抹殺,夠了!我想的比你們任何人還多,想過的還是做了同樣的決定自有我的原因道理。不是看得比較多,懂得比較多,就一定都對。我從以前一直活得擔驚受怕,過得很拘束,因爲把一件事所會引發的其他所有壞事都想一遍,以爲這樣就會有所準備。錯了,我過得更不自在因爲就會開始覺得這些壞事隨時會發生。

我真的衹想輕鬆過日子,不是天真,衹是單純人生裏需要點甜的。

脫離少女之肺腑感言

December 28, 2016
哦買噶,我生日了。來快點祝我生日快樂!(瞪)
Technically我是剛23嵗,可是沒人在理幾月生這回事,所以幾天后總會自動增長一歲。好像不太划算厚。不過我也不是很在乎啦,童顔沒辦法,我永遠16。(甩髮)
肺腑感言其實沒有啦,我衹是來騙點閱率而已。廢話就有一堆,要聽嗎?不要也行,右上角請。

年紀越大越對生日(or任何其他節日)不再抱有任何憧憬。(長大了哦)反正日子也是一樣過,一樣要睜開眼面對這世界,吃飯,講話,睡覺,發懶,碎碎念也就過去了。唯一在乎的是與家人的生日晚餐啦!(我明晚就去吃韓國料理了,生日最大)在生日當天吃對食物很重要!會影響我一整天的期待感和心情。最近減肥中,所以偶爾一次大餐是很值得感動的事。我能順便在這許個願嗎?再幾天就新的一年了嘛,最希望一整年都過得順利,順利完成實習,順利結束臺灣之旅,順利完成最後一個學期,順利畢業,順利找到工作,順利考得TOPIK文憑,順利結婚生子(開玩笑的),然後不要再有不好的事發生了。會學著以平常心面對一切!

最後非常重要的第三個願望,我要瘦下來!我要擠進貼身牛仔褲,我要穿起緊身裙也不覺得彆扭,我要坦蕩蕩露出我的肚皮!(不再是肚腩)ok?ok?

好啦,我累了。明天記得再補充。

My thoughts about self-learning Korean (How I did it)

December 25, 2016
I actually wanted to write a post of this topic quite awhile ago then I stumbled across a Singaporean blogger's blog few days ago which she wrote about her journey of learning Korean and Japanese where she began from self-learning and it is quite similar to my situation so I guess maybe I can give my two cents too? Not sure if it would help anyone out there but just wish to share what I know so far. And I will go by the usual question and answer form so you get to know it clearer.

Q : How do you feel about self-learning a completely new language? Was it hard for you?

It was not hard at all for me to be honest, I started receiving info and knowledge of foreign language when I was 14 cause I was so into Kpop and it used to make me feel closer to my oppas (roll eyes). So ya I was already very interested in it when I started so I could say I learned and adapt quite fast. And what I wish to say here is everything is not tough anymore if you really like it (smiles).

Q : How and where did you learn it? 

10 years back I was not really good with net surfing and all so I started off with copying lyrics. I used to buy those albums and they always came with a lyrics booklet so I would normally copied them down to a notebook and translated word by word. I didn't even know what I was copying but I just wrote them down and translated to romanization. And I did that every day without fail, anyhow I will squeeze out an hour or so every single day to copy them. Basically I learned my pronunciation from listening to Korean songs (I can listen to the same song for more than 10 times a day, and Korean songs blasting day to night).

I would also looked up to online tutorials when I got more familiar with the whole internet thing. What I did was I downloaded some of the worksheets (for beginners) and tried to do them with the help of google translator and dictionaries. I actually bought quite a few Korean grammar books, I was really picky in getting these guide books. I suggest you to get those without translation/romanization (especially those translated using chinese words, they sound really funny and you would probably get mislead and also to prevent you from being too dependent on the translation given). I prefer translating everything on my own in my mind but it is also better to do some short notes sometimes. This was how I learned to read fast (without knowing 100% the meaning though) but good enough to read lyrics (raises eyebrow)

Q : Do you need to spend a lot of time in it since you're doing self-learning?

Not really, as I mentioned I would spend an hour or two sometimes less if I was busy with exam preparation or so. But doing it everyday keep you fresh and attended, because it is not something that we learn since young so it definitely needs longer time for us to process the info received. I would suggest the beginners to try practicing every day, even just half an hour from writing, listening or reading. It helps really, trust me. It is all about persistence here, you can't rush.

Q : How do you know if pronounce correctly since you have no tutor to correct you?

HAHA, at this stage google is quite helpful but not all the time. I watched many Korean dramas and listened to close to or maybe more than 1000 Korean songs already in the past 10 years. And I really like repeating the lines in drama (sometimes pretending I was the one acting), I would follow what and how they said it for a few times, listened to myself and repeat the lines for a few times to check if I did it correctly. Besides, I watched short videos too and I will repeat the scenes again and again till I got to listen clearly of what the person saying. I'm quite fussy in pronunciation, be in for other languages as well. I always try my best to speak as accurate as possible cause to be honest it sounds annoying to me when people strengthen on the "r" so much when they say saranghae (roll eyes). Of course I'm not the best, but I always try my best.

Q : How do you understand if you are watching something without subtitles?

Because I only did self-learning all these while so I have very very bad grammar. I could understand words and short sentences but not formal and long ones. But I can still understand about 50-70% depending on what kind of videos. As for songs a little bit more as they are usually about the same (especially love songs). I used to force myself to watch videos without subtitles just so I could practice my listening and also get my brain used to this language. For me it worked quite well, cause I improved quite a lot in my listening and I sometimes watch drama without subtitles and still know if the boy loves the girl or not, or he is dying from some disease bla bla (smirks). Simple to average is fine for me but big NO NO for ancient story background kind of drama, I understand nothing cause I know not much about formal language (I really wish I could understand them one day though). Overall, I think it is about practice again. Try it once in awhile to watch a short video without looking at the subs and force yourself (not like force force la if you get what I mean) to understand it and remember the meaning of each line. It definitely made a difference after some time.

Q : Where and how did you practice it?

I talk to myself a lot (no I'm not crazy), and I sing. I used to own a Korean twitter thing called me2day, and it was where I made friends with Korean people. And I tried to chat with them in my very very broken Korean I was lucky la most of them too kind and complemented on my Korean (which was quite bad actually at that stage but I used to think I quite geng hahahah) so it gave me lots of courageous to use Korean more in my daily life. I tried to write short passage or sentences in my secret notebook (now gone liao) or I would just post it on me2day since nobody used it (my friends only Jenn knows la).

Oh there was a thing I did too, quite rude actually. I listened to people's conversation every time when I met Korean people around me. (kepoh I know) but I wanted to try understanding what they saying cause Korean speak 10 times faster than what you hear from your whatever guide CDs or tutorial videos. I failed la most of the time, still adapting to their speed of speaking (sighs).

There was a time I really got to practice it though, I went Korean for a trip in around 2011. I chatted a lot to the driver who brought us around. He was like appa to all of us and I actually called him that too. I would always go next to him while waiting for the others before we left to next station and tried my best to make conversation. And through our conversation I found out that he has a son studying in KyungHee who is a few years elder than me and he also went around telling people (restaurant owners most of the time) I was cute (I said WAS ah not cute anymore I know). At the end of the trip he even wrote his phone number down in my notebook and told me to contact him if I was going to come Korea again (cause I told him I wanted to pursue Korean language in Korea). I tried to speak Korean to them locals too when I was asking for stuffs or buying things instead of speaking English to them. Ok back to story, so I think it is really great if you have someone to talk to in order for you to really practice it in real life but I never tried speaking Korean to my korean friend before la I paiseh. (last time buey paiseh see people I talked ba liao)

Q : Do you think self-learning is enough to master it?

I do not think it's enough for you to really master it through only self-learning. Because most of the time you need to speak and write a lot for you to fully adapt into using the language cause it is not our mother tongue afterall. And we forget easily after few months not using it (me la goldfish memory). It's really better if you can sign up for class after reaching more than average level, and try to get tutors who speak Korean as native cause it is where you get to learn the most accurate information, pronunciation especially. But I think there are still people who managed to master the language despite doing only self-learning (cause you know genius everywhere). I strongly suggest you to start with self-learning though at the beginning stage, quite a waste of money if you spend few hundreds just to learn how to read the basic which you can always learn from internet.

After writing this post I think I should have done this a lot earlier, I always wish to share useful info on my site instead of spamming with my emotional posts. Oh ya, I just signed up for Korean class as I think it is really time for me to make it to a more advanced level, I have stopped half way for way too long already wasted a few years time in between. I hope whatever I have said could help any of you out there who is interested in picking up a new language but too afraid of wasting too much money on it. So self-learning it is! It is not hard at all trust me, anyhow you will find a way to get there if you really have a strong interest here.

See you in the next post!

Year End Thoughts

December 22, 2016
It is the time of the year again and here I am jotting down every single thoughts that come across my mind just so I don't forget even a single bit of how I feel right now.

2016 is a year full with emotions,
roller coaster ride with thoughts of giving up haunting me, of course I didn't.
And I think I ended up being stronger than ever.

First half of the year was when I had short semester, together with the juniors of lower semester. It was definitely a pleasant journey cause it was not just my first time leading such a big sub group but also the first time I question about my capability. Guess I really thought too high about myself most of the time. So I learned to be patient, to be more humble. And feeling more grateful than before to be blessed with great teammates and tutors. Yes it made hell big difference.

What came next was the 4th semester of my degree year which I called it hell. (smiles) Guess most of the people know why and I don't want to talk too much about it anymore. Keep ranting about the same issue won't make me look any better so yea at least it's over! But it was the time I broke down the most, crying almost every one or two days and to the edge of "YES THIS IS IT FLIP TABLE" I have that thoughts so easily I noticed but same thing I sucked everything in and went through every hardships given (flips hair like a boss). Really I never knew I could be this strong before enrolling myself into this course, both mentally and also physically. But thank goodness, it ended well enough too. Again, I'm extremely thankful for always having angels around me to help me out when I need them most, be it just emotional support or physical ones. Guys, it helped a lot...

Slowly I realized, the more I'm doing it the more I wish it could just end as soon as possible.. More and more struggles I have faced with my inner self conscious. I have to fight with myself every single day without fail, telling myself to stay strong and finish everything. My day will come, my time my glory will soon be there...

Semester 5 just ended weeks ago, the craziest semester ever with very very little sleep in between. The only long sleep I would get was probably after submissions (half of time not cause the submissions continued after one another), you will find breathing wasting your time too no joke. And some dramas happened too, it was not well managed enough I have to admit but what needed to be done have been done, we will see. Academic wise, I think I have done quite ok despite the heavy workload thrown at me (all of us) I handled them pretty well. And I cried no more! okay I only cried once the day before studio submission when 3Ds max decided to fail me last minute. But I kept praying and tadahhhh everything went smoothly in the end! Guess a strong mentality is what keeps me alive till today! Even the boyfie was surprised at how chill I was at coping with most of the things, at least I don't go to his place and cry all day all night anymore.

I'm actually happy at how much I have changed compared to the first few semester, definitely growing up! Daddy please be proud of me hehe

Disclaimer : I do not think crying is the best way to solve an issue but definitely not considered as something bad to be done too. It was a way of mine to release my emotions and it harms no one so why not? At the end of the day I still managed to finish up my part and I definitely felt better!

Soon after the semester ended, as it draws closer to the end of my degree life. I did a lot of thinking lately, since I have nothing else to do other than just sitting there. I question a lot on my decision, did I even regret getting myself into this? I have to say, I did but not much. And I'm actually quite glad that I went through these years doing something I was not really interested nor good at it. 

It thought me a lot to be honest, and I was hit by this sudden realization of how I should really start planning about my future. Of what I really love and wish to do for the rest of my life, my life is already set to be inseparable from languages and I know it so well. It was a missing piece from me for the past 10 years, a big part of me still long for it very very much. So I have made up some plans for 2017 and please wish me luck on making them come true! Need them lots!

2017 is definitely a better year to look forward to, I always believe that things only get better if you believe that they will. And how bad could it be provided I have already gone through the worst days for the first half of 2016. There are so many things I'm anticipating too! 

Internship, language class, Taiwan trip, graduation and my completely new life!!!

At the end of this post, I would like to dedicate my appreciation to every single person who had helped in any way, every way be it good or bad. Thank you just thank you for shaping me into ME today. Never would have gone this far without these great ones surrounding.



k going to continue my kdrama binge.

Inside Out

August 13, 2016









Wishlist

August 12, 2016

Ahhh just simply feel like writing them down in case I forget you know,
There are way too many times I wish to achieve in the coming future but baby steps I will do it slowly, nailing all down one by one.

First let me talk about life achievement,
I used to have many many things I wish to achieve and complete especially when I'm still enjoying the oh-so-great uni life but slowly I come to notice that it's impossible with so many limitations around.

1. Complete my Japanese language study
I talked about this endless time for many years already, I have yet to tick it off my wishlist. The reason being I don't think I have enough love for it like what I have for Korean. Time shouldn't be an issue if I really love something, so I think my love for it is not great enough for me to make sacrifices for it over other things. But I know I will check this off sooner or later, it's just a matter of "when"?

2. Do something meaningful to someone/myself
Meaningful I mean by something life-changing, I'm not a kind hearted person I need to admit this and sometimes hated myself for revealing the ugly and evil inner sides. I personally feel disgusted by it la and I really wanna throw this part of myself away, and focus only on the positivity. It's easier said than done really, it's never easy to just erase something that has been inside of you for so long, I try to be nice try to be patient try to be as easy as it needs, it's not working that well yet I suppose. By taking this huge step of accepting I ain't saint, ain't angel but a devil in heart, it's something so overwhelming and I sometimes choose to run away from it. Embracing and admitting to your own faults/flaws has never been easy, to me and to many others. I'm trying...

3. Somehow find out what I'm really good at
Okay about this I have no idea to be honest, you can say I'm pretty good at most of the things and also pretty bad at them. I mean I'm just a so so person. I don't know what I'm really good at, zero confidence. The only I know, I love words I love reading I love writing. BUT I certainly know I'm not good enough for it. And again I'm trying, maybe not now but 10 or 15 years later who knows?

4. Gather enough courage to pick up what's been missed
I wouldn't tell, so you guess. If you know me enough ;)


Ok, now I'm done with the serious part.. quite. Some silly and stupid thoughts I have in mind, don't judge la I know most of the girls do. Some quite serious still la not as the one above, hmm just something I wish to do.

1. I wanna be financially stable to support my ever-growing shopaholic inner soul
I shop so much I don't even want to stop, I wish I can buy everything I see and I love. Every girl's dream la k?

2. I wish I would stop aging (which is of course IMPOSSIBRUUU)
I'm starting to seek for anti-aging products everywhere, any nice or good brand intro please! Especially those which help to reduce wrinkles, way too many around my eyes. Oh yea, and better skin complexion, had enough of the acne man!

3. I wish to grow this platform to a bigger family
I really love sharing my thoughts to other people although I hate the consequences of affecting people's life in the end. Whatever you think is right to take in, you filter yourself. I don't like faking myself to be an angel, this is my own space anyway *smirks* So far my posts have yet to contain vulgarities, still safe no worries.

I wish I can have more time to manage this space, so that it won't be dead in awhile again. Dead way to many times hor, die so many times how can?

To be continued...

憶 . 臺灣

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再見 . Taiwan


去年的這段期間,第一次到臺灣去。比起旅行更像是冒險,可我享受這樣肆無忌彈拼了命玩樂的感覺。一覺醒來就是繼續步行到下一個新地點,所有事物都好新鮮好惹人喜歡。喜歡臺灣人的那一份溫暖,對人對事都很有耐心,就算你閑逛了整家店什麽都不買,他們都會給予你一個微笑。

每天期待著會到怎麽樣的地方去,會遇見怎樣的人,會看見什麽事物,會吃到什麽好吃的 (笑) 。好吧,我就是個吃貨。其實還有很多還沒嘗到,因爲胃口都不太好。有機會再回去我一定要吃夠本!

一年了,周遭一切也應該不同了。不變的是,我想再次啓程去“探險”的心!

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